I have been thinking that maybe I should write something in my blog. Yesterday was 2 months since we lost Arnie. Our struggles are still very real which I expect will continue indefinitely. I find myself finding comfort in prayer and dependence on God to get me through one day at a time. I have been able to make more positive moves toward getting on with my life. My daughter and I spend lots of time together which is really a good thing.
We even traveled to PA last weekend to visit with my in-laws and with my brother and sister in law. That was good, even though my brother lives in Ellwood City PA which is really out there -- in the mountains where the streets through town are unbelievable - up and down and nothing is laid out square. I grew up in western PA but I forgot about how a lot of those little towns are as far as streets, etc. Interesting and fun trip though!
I also have become aware that I do not feel the desperate need to visit the cemetery all the time. I am sure there are those who do and that is fine. I feel that each of us handles and processes the loss of a loved one differently and one way is not "right" or "wrong". I find that the memories are at home - everywhere and all around me. I am aware of the times Arnie and I spent in our home of 17 years now - a home that we built with much thought about how we wanted it to be. Some of those memories make me cry but that is okay. I loved him so much and will always love him and miss him.
Please keep me in your prayers and please do feel free to contact me.
God bless each of you and I thank you for your love and concern for me.
