I have been thinking that maybe I should write something in my blog. Yesterday was 2 months since we lost Arnie. Our struggles are still very real which I expect will continue indefinitely. I find myself finding comfort in prayer and dependence on God to get me through one day at a time. I have been able to make more positive moves toward getting on with my life. My daughter and I spend lots of time together which is really a good thing.
We even traveled to PA last weekend to visit with my in-laws and with my brother and sister in law. That was good, even though my brother lives in Ellwood City PA which is really out there -- in the mountains where the streets through town are unbelievable - up and down and nothing is laid out square. I grew up in western PA but I forgot about how a lot of those little towns are as far as streets, etc. Interesting and fun trip though!
I also have become aware that I do not feel the desperate need to visit the cemetery all the time. I am sure there are those who do and that is fine. I feel that each of us handles and processes the loss of a loved one differently and one way is not "right" or "wrong". I find that the memories are at home - everywhere and all around me. I am aware of the times Arnie and I spent in our home of 17 years now - a home that we built with much thought about how we wanted it to be. Some of those memories make me cry but that is okay. I loved him so much and will always love him and miss him.
Please keep me in your prayers and please do feel free to contact me.
God bless each of you and I thank you for your love and concern for me.
I love you, Mom, and I am very proud of how well you are doing and how strong you are. You are a lesson for all of us!
ReplyDeletePraise the Lord & glad to see your doing a little better & God is awesone how He does help ,care & leads us in the right direction too. God Bless Bill & Honey lou
ReplyDeleteSo glad you are making progress. You will get better because you have faith and support from your friends and family. You are in my prayers as always.
ReplyDeleteJim
I am just beginning a similar journey. Not the same, because it was my mother-in-law, not a spouse...but that being said, I was her primary caregiver for the last two years and she passed Friday morning. We are celebrating her homegoing at 2 pm today. In our weakness, we become strong. I will continue in prayer for you and I would ask that you do the same for me. The memories are here in our home even though, thankfully, she didn't pass at home.
ReplyDeleteGod Bless you for sharing.
I just now saw your comment. I will keep you in my prayers. Thank you for sharing with me. I find so much strength and courage from other believers and through prayer.
DeleteGod Bless you!